I have writen and rewriten words for these pictures, but nothing seems right. So I just sit and wait.
...and as I look at my beautiful sister a whirl of emotions swirl through my belly but in the end its love and happiness that I feel. Tears can sting my eyes, damp fingers resting below and I can feel the pain of my loss but its ok. I have sweet memories of our past and faith for the whats ahead. I can tell our sweet girl all them amazing little things I want so deperately for her to know about her Mom and Dad waiting Heaven. So for now on nights like tonight when I want just a little bit more than I can have of her I will hurt and then welcome the wave of love and warmth I feel as I reminisce over photos and memories.
I love the special touches little girls add to their outfits. This time, its a shoelace in lieu of a necklace and layers and layers of chapstick:) Two's can be undeniably difficult but I have to say so-much-fun! I adore watching my girls grow and play and my nieces insisting on wearing dresses EVERYDAY;) Its so so girlie and so much fun. So we are diving into everything girlie this weekend. We are painting our nails and curling our hair and by the end of it all we should be walking on clouds, or at least have some big grins on some little faces.
What do I need to remember about this trip? ...Our little walk, just me and my three ducklings. There was no noise, no time, no distractions. We just played. The kind of play that lifts your heart and makes you feel light again. A memory that is crisp and white and so lovely I need to write it down to be sure I don't forget it. Aubrie, my little girl. I don't want to forget your eagerness to simply be with me. To do whatever I might be doing:) I simply love this about you. Deacon, your love for exploring and being in the mountains. You have such an honest imagination, so young and fresh...something I truly adore in you. Ysa, so happy to be with your siblings. To wake in the morning and talk to the mountains. As you wait with Mama and Grandy in the ski logde and explain to us how you need to grow a little more before you even WANT to ski!!! You my love are too sweet:) Really, I hope I remember you all as you really are. I love you and hope you never forget it!
I remember reading Anne of Green Gables and felt I could really relate to her in the scrawny, knock kneed, freckle kissed, red-headed way. And I definitely had some great girl friends growing up, but we moved a fair bit and I never really felt I had a bosom buddy quite like Anne had. Now I look at Aubrie and Olivia and thank our lucky stars she has such a friend. Living across the alley from us things couldn't be more convenient or really any more perfect for one another. Ysa adores Olivia and the three girls play so nicely. So I thought it would be fun to pull them away from their Saturday morning play for a few quick photos. Aubrie's messy hair, sweet little dirty faces...I loved it and I didn't want to mess with a good memory:)